"It's like, / wobble gently onward and I'll tell you how I feel."

On Being Ill an 8tracks playlist about feeling sick // songs that remind me of sickness

Dark Blue (Jack’s Mannequin Cover) – Conrad Tao
Miasma Sky – Baths
Packt Like Sardines In A Crushed Tin Box – Radiohead
Up Against The Wall – Boys Like Girls
Gonna Die – Autre Ne Veut
Such Great Heights – The Postal Service
Fever Dreams – Dashboard Confessional
WHALE – Yellow Ostrich
Is This It – The Strokes
No Sunlight – Death Cab For Cutie
Futile Devices – Sufjan Stevens

I was going to quote the last lines of On Being Ill but for some reason it feels like that would spoil it somehow so I won’t and I’ll just say she’s right instead and go try to find some Anne Helen Petersen articles for this Kesha paper

Considering how common illness is, how tremendous the spiritual change that it brings, how astonishing, when the lights of health go down, the undiscovered countries that are then disclosed, what wastes and deserts of the soul a slight attack of influenza brings to view, what precipices and lawns sprinkled with bright flowers a little rise of temperature reveals, what ancient and obdurate oaks are uprooted in us by the act of sickness, how we go down into the pit of death and feel the waters of annihilation close above our heads and wake thinking to find ourselves in the presence of the angels and the harpers when we have a tooth out and come to the surface in the dentist’s arm-chair and confuse his “Rinse the mouth—rinse the mouth” with the greeting of the Deity stooping from the floor of Heaven to welcome us—when we think of this, as we are so frequently forced to think of it, it becomes strange indeed that illness has not taken its place with love and battle and jealousy among the prime themes of literature.

Virginia Woolf, “On Being Ill”


Dashboard Confessional

Fever Dreams


fever dreams/dashboard confessional

When I was a first-year, I used this song as my wake-up track when I would take tiny ten-minute naps because the first strum is so striking. I really love the song, but I kind of wrecked it for myself because of this.